Turning Tables

I’m sorry. I can’t give you what you want. I can’t be who you need. I am not the one. I know I seem like the best but I’m not. I have nothing left to give. I can’t play this game anymore.

I am done.

I can’t keep breaking your heart every day..

You are my friend.

I can’t be more.

It takes courage to open your heart, lay it on a platter and wait to be gorged; devoured and torn into bite sized portions, forked away, and perhaps even returned for not being ‘just right’.

Rejection.

Your worst nightmare. It’s like you woke up and didn’t quite wake up. Your eyes are open but the night’s still dark, still terrifying. The words cut like a knife.

Bad Romance! And you still want it. You want the love, you don’t wanna be friends. You are caught in a bad romance.(Don’t you love Gaga’s prophetic lyrics!)

Your friends lecture you again and again and get you to see the REAL her/him. They tell you all the gossip and all the scandalous info that they can dig up. You can’t stop. You don’t care. You want it all. As much as possible.

I am not defending the lovesick idiots or trying to make a vamp/villain of the besotted. It’s out of your hands. The matters of the heart cripple one like nothing else. I can’t change how you think and how you feel. He can’t either. He can’t push you away. The more he does, the more you desire him.

The biggest question is, is he worth it?

I don’t think so!

You are beautiful. An amazing woman. He isn’t worth your tears. Or your second glances. He loses when he says no to you. And mark my words, he isn’t worth the friendship either. It’s a rule of thumb; there isn’t any way in HELL that he can be your friend. He is using you. You are letting him use you. Or perhaps, he really can’t do anything. He just can’t. He doesn’t feel that way about you. He doesn’t look at you differently. He doesn’t feel how you do. Or maybe he does and he doesn’t have the guts to do what is needed.

It’s quite true what they say, all men are cowards, women have the guts in the race; they do what is required, regardless of consequences, they fight the world for the ones they love.

If you find a man who is ready to do that, you have struck gold. They are a rare breed. Hold on to him.

Don’t go looking for love. It will come to you when you least expect it. He will find you. He will see you in the midst of the crowd. He will know you. He will cherish you. Give you what you deserve, what you craved, help you forget, help you heal. He will be yours and not afraid to say it. He will walk you down the aisle for all the world to see. He will lead you to the island of bliss. Beware of the wind that will sweep you away.. it’s right around the next bend…


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“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”
 Jalal ad-Din Rumi quote
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One comment

  1. Haris · October 11, 2011

    Why is commitment such a big problem for a man? I think that for some reason when a man is driving down that freeway of love, the woman he’s with is like an exit, but he doesn’t want to get off there. He wants to keep driving. And the woman is like, “Look, gas, food, lodging, that’s our exit, that’s everything we need to be happy…Get off here, now!” But the man is focusing on sign underneath that says, “Next exit 27 miles,” and he thinks, “I can make it.” Sometimes he can, sometimes he can’t. Sometimes, the car ends up on the side of the road, hood up and smoke pouring out of the engine. He’s sitting on the curb all alone

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